Diary entry of a patient.

dear diary,

Yesterday was the worst day of my life, as if the humiliation of being in here wasn't enough, They dropped a bomb on me. They told me if i didn't get better in four weeks that my visit would have to be extended to six weeks and it was only my first day here and i wasn't going to let that happen.
Everyone in here scares me, i would say I'm the most normal out of everyone, even the nurses scare me. Ive never seen so many eyes desperate for freedom and sunshine, even a day to my visit i can feel my eyes slowly beg for the same. my welcoming made things worse, usually i can make at least one friend but here everyone made it quite clear they are not interested, and as for my friends back home, they never called, no e-mails, no messages. I never expected any, i only wished, but everyone knows wishes don't come true, you have to fight for them, maybe i need to fight harder. I wanted a chance to give an apology, to apologize for being the crazy friend, and i would also want to clear my name of all the accusations, but i guess that's what i am here for.
Another "highlight" of my day was my roommates friend, she cough me in the halls, and stared at me blankly for seconds, i felt awkward and when i couldn't bare her eyes stinging mine i shifted to the left to keep walking down the hall when she suddenly let out a scream. not the usual, i saw a bug scream, she let out a piercing scream, and it startled everyone as they came running to see what was happening, but it had haunted me. She screamed but there were a million words she was saying, i could tell. Men in white suits soon came to get her, and she looked as if she was going to brake if they pulled her any harder, she didn't want to be taken away. The nurses followed after, when the shouting ended, you could hear her slowly cry and beg for her mom. I wanted to go and keep her company,but they told me that i would be breaking the rules, and reminded me that it could make me stay here for an additional two weeks, so i went to my room and tried to get my mind of things, but that didn't help.
There is a strict schedule here, if you don't follow it, you are punished, the same goes for the rules. I am obligated to wake up at 7 am, after 7:40 no one is allowed back into the showers.
at 9 am we have to be in the cafeteria for breakfast, soon after that we go to our afternoon classes, at 12:30 we must report to the cafeteria once again to eat lunch, like rats. after lunch we can have a rest and watch t.v, no cable. after our brake we meet individually with our counselors, at 6:30 we receive our medications, and at 9pm lights are out. I don't know if i will be able to survive for four weeks, let alone six. We will have to wait and see.



Reflection-
After watching and reading girl,interrupted, i wanted to do something similar, like Susana's crazy encounter with the other girls and how she felt at the beginning but i changed stuff around a little bit so i wouldn't be retelling the story and instead of the same story i kind of made it mine, to give an insight on a patients first week